Words by: CJ Sanchez
I found the place where I’m really belong. It’s here, in the dark and obscure room. It was cozy. I, myself couldn’t see my own reflection.
I wasn’t depressed, I was just sad.
Probably the loneliest and saddest person you’ve ever met.
But I didn’t regret anything in my life.
I’m lost in my own world, in my own thoughts, in my own emotions. I don’t know if I’m dreaming, or maybe it’s just a beautiful nightmare.
I forgot to spell my own name. I lost myself for so long. I couldn’t find myself.
What do you think is this all about? A cheesy love story again? A mainstream romance? No, it is not.
It’s just all about the guy whom I met when I was lying in the four corners of solitude.
I can see his tears. I can see how lonely he was. Life must be hard for him. He was living in misery. Just like me.
“Free”
He whispers,
I stared at him for a couple of minutes. He too, was lying. We were facing each other, and still the tears are cascading through his eyes. He’s unfathomable, just like a deep, dark void.
“I don’t want this anymore”
He looks forlorn and crestfallen. I must help him but I can’t.
I smiled at him and he smiled at me too.
He’s the only person who can understand me, and I’m the only person who can understand him.
I was about to touch the guy but it feels so hard. It was a massive mirror, and I can now see my reflection through it.
I’ve realized that the guy who’s alone and sad in the four corners of solitude is me.
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photos: ctto
(You are probably confused why those pictures that I’ve used are mostly a girl but the antecedent is “he.” Just so you know, these pictures somehow portray life in the four corners of solitude.)
Very interesting!
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Could feel the pain!! Again very well written!!
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Thank you, I’ve read some of your works too. I wish I had an enough time for gardening. I love flowers, especially SUNFLOWERS 🌻 it reminds me of happiness.
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Love this! Same as what I am feeling sometimes. Cheer up when you’re sad because there are so much reason to smile about. Keep doing great. Pal
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